It didn't make sense, at all — but faith rarely does.
There were many moments in my life where I literally cried out to God, "Where are you?!" as if the teacher is never quiet during the test. It was four years ago, but I remember it like it was yesterday. It was a regular work day, after over a year of weekly meetings of how the company was doing, and assurance that we were in a good place financially, our whole team was being called to Human Resources one by one. I can vividly recall each person coming out either crying, or with a look of despair and hopelessness in their eyes. We all got the same memo: "Due to budget cuts, we're going to have to let you go. Today is your last day." And just like that, without any warning we had all just been laid off from our permanent, full-time "stable" jobs at a successful university. Let me park here for a second. No matter how many hours you work, how long you've been there, your position, or what they tell you...no job is as stable as a company would like you to believe. They can decide at anytime, for any reason, that they no longer need you; and the two week courtesy notice they expect of you before leaving, in most cases, is not reciprocated. To me, that's not stable. If you were looking for a sign to pursue your passion full time, but you're afraid to leave your "stable" job, this is it. This is your sign. For some reason, I had a peace. I had no other job lined up, I didn't know how I would survive, and yet I was was not worried one bit, and had the slightest idea why. I had just been laid off with no income, only to find out that the family friend I was living with at the time, was on the verge of an eviction. I couldn't believe it. This couldn't have come at a better time. How would I one, find a job and two find a new place to stay all at the same time? As I began searching for new jobs, I prayed. I remember saying God, if I could find a job as an apartment manager where I would have to pay little to no rent, that would be great. In faith, I started looking for jobs as an apartment manager amongst other positions. Mind you, I had never managed an apartment in my life, so this seems laughable in hindsight. It didn't make sense, at all — but faith rarely does. I started applying for jobs with not a lick of property management experience on my resume, but what I did know was that God is able. After countless days and hours of job searching and submitting numerous resumes, I was tired. If you've ever looked for a job, you know that's a job within itself, but I kept praying and I kept looking. After some time, I finally got a call back to come in for an interview. The position was for...you guessed it, an apartment manager. After a successful interview and background check and with zero experience, I was hired working as an on-site apartment manager for over 40 units, mainly college age students and working professionals. My rent...free. Hebrews 11:6 says “But without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him.” I had believed God for the impossible (faith) and He had rewarded me. When I tell you I rejoiced! God is always faithful, so why would I not put my faith in Him. If you're having trouble in your walk, here are three ways to build your faith:
1. CHANGE WHAT YOU’RE SPEAKING.
A message I once heard in church, "We ought not to ask Jesus for things somebody else can do." If we were able to do everything ourselves, we wouldn't need God. If you're always speaking about how it's not going to happen, how you can't do it, how you don't see a way and other negative talk..you're giving yourself and other people too much power. God has the final say. Start claiming and speaking life over your situation.
Proverbs 18:21 Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and those who love it will eat its fruit.
2. GIVE GOD A CHANCE TO SHOW UP.
Don't get discouraged if it doesn't happen right away. You have to keep walking in this faith thing. It doesn't come overnight. It takes practice, over and over, and over again. When you don't see a way, when it doesn't make sense in the natural as to how it's going to happen..that's when you need to keep believing and knowing in your heart that God will show up — and trust me, He will. And when He does, this will give you the confidence you need for challenging situations you face thereafter.
Hebrews 11:1 "Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen."
The word 'substance' translated comes from the Greek word "hupostasis" which means confidence or that which has a firm foundation.
3. PUT YOUR FAITH IN ACTION.
You might be waiting on God for something, and He's simply waiting on you. He's waiting to see if you trust Him enough to do your part, so that He can step in. The more you walk in your faith, the more you'll come to learn when you move, God moves..just like that.
James 2:22 "Do you see that faith was working together with his works, and by works faith was made perfect?"
This was just one of the many testaments of God's goodness in my life, and a huge defining moment of breaking in my faith so to speak. It's almost like breaking in a new pair of shoes. The first time you wear them, it may not feel good. You may have to wear them a few times before you actually get comfortable in them. Before you know it, they're your new favorite shoes and you're wearing them everywhere. Now it's time to break in your faith. Not knowing what the future holds can be a unnerving, but knowing who holds it brings a peace that surpasses all understanding. Whatever you're believing God for, know that it's already done.